On heartbreak

10550955_10153052152896874_1518984238693063277_nSerendipity happens to be one of my favourite words. It means a “fortunate happenstance” or “pleasant surprise”. The past two years have  been an absolute roller coaster ride for me. I discovered things, passions, people.

But I also realised life isn’t as fair as it ought to. I understood karma doesn’t always work the way you want it to. I realised good things don’t always happen to good people and bad things don’t always happen to bad people. It’s not so simple. I realised people will fail you, no matter how hard you try, people will fail you and that is the bitter truth about life. You will see people you considered undeserving get things you thought you deserved and you will be able to do nothing about it. You will try to be nonchalant but that won’t work because those things matter to you. The heartbreak will always leave that irreparable anguish in your heart, it did for me. Hate, I thought was too strong an emotion and I’d probably never experience it, I thought. I did.

But you know what, good things happen too. That rainbow that they talk about at the end of a nasty storm? That exists. I was rejected from something that I badly wanted to be a part of and wanted to put my heart and soul in for reasons I speculate are true but won’t state for lack of proof. A hobby turned into start-up primarily because there was a point to prove to those people. The heartbreak persists. Guess, I’ll never let go of that. But, boy do I have a great story to tell.